Portia de Rossi Sheds Light on Anorexia, Sexuality Struggles

By Alexis Sezar on November 3, 2010

Ricky Martin, Oprah Winfrey, pictures, picture, photos, photo, pics, pic, images, image, hot, sexy, latest, new, 2010HOLLYWOOD, Calif. — Portia de Rossi is opening up about the years she spent battling anorexia and bulimia and the pressure she felt to hide being gay.

"My struggle with anorexia, coming to terms with my sexuality, I realized I had struggled with self-acceptance my whole life," the 37-year-old actress writes in her new memoir, Unbearable Lightness: A Story of Loss and Gain, according to an excerpt obtained by People magazine. "To be able to get to a point where you're just happy with who you are, I think that's when you know what real peace feels like."

Looking back, de Rossi can admit how unhealthy she was as she stares at a photo when she weighed 82 pounds.

"At the time, I thought, 'Okay, my arms look awful so I should cover them up, but my legs look pretty okay now," she recalls to the mag. "I didn't think I was crazy to only eat 300 calories a day. That made perfect sense to me."

Now healthy and happily married to Ellen DeGeneres, de Rossi has a lot to look forward to.

"Look, I don't think I'm perfect. I still don't like my thighs," she says. "But I'm not going to do anything to compromise my health or my sanity to change them. I don't want to have secrets anymore. I don't want to have a darkness that I feel that I should be ashamed of. And going forward now, without having anything to hide, the future looks pretty bright."